Never, never, never giving up

I was never a runner. As a child I actually wasn’t into any sports but when I left home and went to university I started to do certain physical activities like teaching myself to swim. Over the years I expanded my exercise repertoire and before the boys were born I was actually a bit of a gym rat. But still… I *hated* running. It was boring and painful – NOT a good combination! Then the boys were born and my life became a seemingly endless progression of huge events: preemie twins, developmentally delayed twins, going back to work, marital breakup, ASD diagnosis for both boys… exercise just never seemed to be a big enough priority. About a year ago I realized that if I was going to stay healthy (mentally as well as physically) I really needed to start getting active again.

So, I decided to give running a whirl. After all, money was tight (and still is) and other than the cost of shoes, running is free. I did a lot of research in order to ascertain whether it was in fact possible to run without vomiting and discovered that it could be done! I took things very slowly and it went surprisingly well. After a short while I found that I actually started to love it. I got to the stage where I could run 7 km fairly comfortably, quite a bit further if I took short walk breaks. Then, tax season hit me and my life outside the office took a nose-dive. Despite my best intentions, I stopped running.

I love tax season

Yesterday I decided that I needed to break through the sloth of despond and just go for a run. And reader; I did. As I ran I discovered some things:

  1. I’d forgotten how hot I get. Even though my running jacket is wafer thin, I was still WAY too hot.
  2. I hadn’t forgotten how to pace myself though – yay me!
  3. I need new headphones. My current ones are older than my children and the wad of scotch tape I have wrapped around the cracked tubing really irritates my ears. Hmm. Maybe I’ll get money for my birthday that I can use to get some??!

I also found myself thinking over why it was so important for me to be running again:

  1. I feel healthier when I run.
  2. I like the endorphin high and the sense of accomplishment I get afterwards.
  3. I enjoy having some time that’s all my own.
  4. It’s an effective anti-depressant and is weight-bearing exercise – so it’s good for my bones.
  5. It helps control my blood sugar (my mother’s diabetic and I had gestational diabetes so I’m at risk for Type II diabetes).
  6. It alleviates my seasonal asthma.

In all honesty though, the most compelling reason for me to run is for my kids. They not only need me, they need me healthy. As I realized this I was running my last 5 minutes and a track from ‘Run Lola Run’ started playing. For those of you who haven’t seen the movie I’m not spoiling it for you by saying that Lola spends a lot of her time running 😉

Didn't see any nuns on my run yesterday though...

Lola runs to try and prevent something from happening. When she doesn’t get there in time then time itself jumps backwards and she starts over. She continues to run over and over until finally, she gets where she needs to be in time to secure a happier outcome. It’s like Groundhog Day, but in German. I saw the film when it came out and I loved the soundtrack. I have a few of the songs from it on my playlist and when ‘Running Two’ started (creative title eh?) I realized it was perfectly in tune with my number one reason for running:

Never, never, never, never letting go,

Never giving up, never saying No

Just go, go, never stop

Never think

Just do, do, do the right thing

Love is just the only strain that makes me live through all my pain

I got caught up in the idea of never giving up, of doing the right thing for my kids because they are worth any amount of grief, of running for and because of them, that when I checked my watch I realized I’d run over my time. Without barfing! It was awesome!

But man, do I ever need to get some new headphones.

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6 Comments on “Never, never, never giving up”

  1. Gingerheaddad May 30, 2011 at 8:46 pm #

    How did I know you would love “Run, Lola, Run?” I know exactly what you mean about the number one reason for running is that your kids need you to stay healthy, because I do it for the same reason. Too bad about the headphones. Need duct tape?

    • OMum22 May 31, 2011 at 12:10 pm #

      Thanks so much for the duct tape offer :p

  2. Danica May 30, 2011 at 10:07 pm #

    What a fabulous story! I use to LOVE to run & if I could I would again. Last time I tried to run I passed out every time I got on the treadmill. My trainer finally told me untill I could get clearance from Dr. then she could not train me anymore. That was 3 years ago and 50 pounds less LOL.. Wow I need to get off my butt..
    I know I might not be around to see my youndest have kids, but I need to stay as healthy as I can. Thanks for the inspiration 🙂

    • OMum22 May 31, 2011 at 12:12 pm #

      You found something I wrote inspirational! That’s wonderful. 🙂

  3. solodialogue June 5, 2011 at 12:58 am #

    Pushing past barfing while you run? That’s some will power girl!! Now I want to see that movie – it sounds great (plus I now know you have good taste – 42)… Just wear a hat with a fan on it to cool you off! We certainly don’t want you running out there naked!

    • OMum22 June 6, 2011 at 12:50 pm #

      Haha – trust me Karen, no-one wants me running around naked, least of all me 😉

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